Last week I had a personal epiphany. I hadn’t intended to have an epiphany – who does?
It happened as a result of writing an email to a group of close friends & dear colleagues & clients. I was writing from the heart. I was sharing my truth in that moment when the epiphany hit me. It hit me like an emotional brick. It seems so obvious to me now in retrospect, but in the moment, while I was organising my thoughts to send the email, it struck me as profound.
Side Note: This is such a testiment to the value of journalling!
My epiphany was… that I don’t ask for help.
Here’s the email I sent:
As you know I’m all about elevating women’s confidence, and part of that process means stepping out of comfort zones. Welp! This me doing just that.
As I write this, I’m having a realisation – I’ve realised that I’m uncomfortable asking for help. Being fiercely independent, self-sufficient and being the girl that others come to for help has always been my reality. At school I was the one who’s friends would come to stay to avoid the dramas happening at home. To some degree, that’s still the case. As a result, when I have challenges in my business I tend to deal with them alone.
I’m now realising how this as been limiting my growth, the growth of my business, and the impact I know my work can have on others. I’ve been standing in my own way for so many years. Too many years.
I see now that my ego gets a kick out of receiving comments and feedback from people saying “Every time I turn on social media, there you are.” or “You pop up everywhere.” or “You look so busy”
The truth is, I’m tired. I’m tired of the pace I’ve set for myself, especially when it feels like I’m not getting anywhere. Sometimes even going backwards.2018 is my year of doing things differently, and apparently this is yet another way in which it’s showing up for me. When I woke up this morning I didn’t know I would be sending this email, not in this way, at least.What you’re not seeing is the 5 minutes of hesitation between each line.What I’m trying to get to, in a very long-winded way, is to ask for your help.I’m running a 1 day workshop on the 20th of March in Constantia at a beautiful Yoga Sanctuary.On my current vision board, I have an image of 15 women standing in a circle outside under a big willow tree. This venue that I’ve found pretty much fits that vision.What I still need to manifest is the 15 women who have spent the day with me rebalancing their confidence to reconnect with their business.Here’s my ask: Do you know 1 woman who’s become disconnected from her confidence in some way and who’s seeing the ripple effect of that disconnect ebbing out into her business?Do you think she’s the kind of woman who would be open to exploring the source of that disconnect and would want to receive some tools and practices to reconnect to her confidence so that she can show up for her business again? And to do so in the company of other soulful women who will hold the space for her.The biggest gift you can give us both, is sharing the details of my workshop with her. Here they are: http://abigailk.co.za/cc-works
hop/. I’ve also attached some flyers.I do believe that the ripple of this action right here will have affects far beyond what you and I can fathom.So I’m taking the plunge. I’m hitting send. I’m asking for help. Here I go…PS. Thank You. Sincerely.